I grew up in church and was the one who believed that I should not have sex before marriage because it’s a purity requirement as a child of God. Then I found myself in a situation I was not spiritually or emotionally prepared for, looking back at it. I had boundaries in my head but I didn’t know how to walk in them, so I fell. My fallen season went good for a time because sin feels Good! The enemy will never sell sin as anything else but Good. During those years I still prayed and asked God for his will for my life. Recently I found my diary from back when I was like 20 years old talking to God through those words on the page. I knew what I was doing was wrong but because I went outside of Gods will to get some stuff I found myself living separated from God to keep what my flesh wanted.
Until my shaking season began. It was crazy y’all! Looking back I can only be grateful because I found treasure… JESUS!!! It started with my emotions, that broken person who found self worth in a relationship. It was my priority, something I lived for and how I felt I needed to be loved. Now I know I was me trying to fill my God void with earthly things. I wanted to go back to God but this one thing was in the way, I would write about him and talk to God about the things I did wrong but It was so heard to get free. But my daddy 😭, he knows my purpose, he reached into my life and started to align. I though my prayers wasn’t being heard because I was a sinner but that’s why he died so that I can be his restored one.
God marked me for intimacy with him. He marked me to be a help to my generation, to bear his image and I take that very seriously, it’s my treasure.
If I start to write about my process of being restored I won’t finish. My life now is about bringing glory to the one that restored me and called me his own. It’s like I am a new virgin in Christ! My purity is restored my emotions my priority, my first love! This all began when I repented and wanted with all my heart to be free from emotional turmoil. I wanted to be whole and I found wholeness in Jesus!
I never quite understood that my process was God’s Restoration at work in me. All I know was that I can’t do life without him, I would surely be a mess. Yes I had to fight for emotional and physical purity and still do everyday with practical application of his word, aligning myself with covenant people and rejecting that which is not of God (it’s that serious for me). My journey was one of pain, but God!!!
Look at how strategic God is; I am a member of a church called Restoration City Church 😊, my God!!!. Our mission as a church is To raise up a church that is restored in biblical patterns, principles, power and purpose, that becomes an instrument which establishes the kingdom of God in the earth. Covenant people aligned to aid in my restoration.
My mission as a restored one, is to use my life as a weapon against the devices of the enemy, however I can use my story and process to help my youths to not make the same mistakes I am open, with God as my guide. My identity and relationship with God is my strength, to live with him and be intimately aquatinted with Jesus my savior.
“Living within you is the Christ who floods you with the expectation of glory! This mystery of Christ, embedded within us, becomes a heavenly treasure chest of hope filled with the riches of glory for his people, and God wants everyone to know it!”
Colossians 1:27 TPT
God bless you guys, continue on your journey and don’t give up.